How to get over a really bad engagement proposal, that makes me hate marriage?

Anonymous
I've been engaged for 2 years now. I do love him a lot and I think he's the best thing that happened to me.

I kept asking my boyfriend for marriage. And he said no because he didn't know if I was good enough or something. And then he said he wasn't ready.

Then eventually he said he'll buy me a ring on Christmas. He gave me the box. I opened it myself and put it on myself. It was the wrong size. And we went to the mall to change it.

After we got the new ring, he very awkwardly hid himself in the mall and me. Then he put the ring on very quickly.

He never told his parents till the second year. I don't think he ever told anyone else I am engaged to him.

I just feel like he never wanted marriage and I'm totally put off the idea and now he keeps pushing marriage. I just kinda feel sick remembering the moments.

I don't know I feel like I sound shallow.
How to get over a really bad engagement proposal, that makes me hate marriage?
3 Opinion