Tears flooded down my cheeks as I looked at my reflection staring back at me.
I no longer could see myself anymore, instead, I saw all of the horrible names
I had been called daily.
This was not the first time I begged and pleaded with my Mother to transfer me to another school.
My life would be so much better than the hell I had to put up with day in and day out;
that the parents, teachers, and principals could not stop!
My Mother refused to send me to another school.
She told me in the end, I'd be much stronger than I am now.
If I ran away from problems instead of facing them, I'd continue running away from them my entire life.
I did not know that she was teaching me a lesson, that I'd carry with me forever.
As an adult, In the years to come, I had been in situations that have challenged me mentally, physically and emotionally. Instead of running away when the going gets tough, I've been capable of knowing that I can hold my grip on things. I will carry through. No one or anything will ever break or stop me!
The distraught me, did not know those tender teenage years, would be those that would
shape and mold me into the adult I am today.
Back then, I could not think that far ahead.
All I knew was that, I was at a time in my life, that I hated.
I wanted out!
I was belittled so much, that I could no longer see myself for who I was.
Every time I looked in the mirror, I would see a reflection of all of the names I was called.
I was damaged psychologically.
I used to be this vibrant girl full of personality and life.
All of that was sucked out of me.
I was the target in school.
I was chosen to be hated.
I went to a small high school, where every one knew every body.
When that one popular kid chose to dislike me, literally everyone
in the entire school did.
I remember one day I overheard one of my classmates say to another girl,
"Why do you hate Stacy?", she sat there and thought really hard about the question, only
to not be able to come up with an answer.
She hated me because every one else did.
She did not have a mind of her own.
The people who I thought were my friends were not.
They all participated in my demise.
They never defended me.
They laughed with the popular crowd when jokes were made about me,
they even threw in their own.
When I confronted my so-called friends about their behavior,
they yelled at me and said "So, what! The jokes were funny! I can laugh!"
I didn't know what having a friend felt like.
I was literally hurt by every one who I was supposed to love, confide in,
During the years of endured bullying,
I became overtook with emotions, some of which were hate.
I dealt with this abuse for years, coming to a point where I wanted to kill these people.
I even thought about killing myself.
They took my life from me, so why couldn't I take theirs?
Bullying doesn't just lead to lost of self.
It leads to lost of lives.
By being one of the people that laugh at others,
you are allowing yourself to be a participant of the bullying.
You are an associate of those negative acts.
By sitting there and responding the way you do to others being bullied,
you are showing your encouragement to the victimizer.
You have become just as bad as the person, who is holding the weapon of
Effects of bullying
(1) Columbine highschool massacre
The Columbine High School massacre was a school shooting that occurred on April 20, 1999, Both of the shooters were classified as gifted children and had allegedly been victims of bullying for four years. A year later, an analysis by officials at the US Secret Service of 37 premeditated school shootings found that bullying, which some of the shooters described "in terms that approached torment," played the major role in more than two-thirds of the attacks. A similar theory was expounded by Brooks Brown in his book on the massacre; he noted that teachers commonly looked the other way when confronted with bullying. Columbine
(2) The effects of bullying on a young boy.
He has been hurt so much that even he himself wants to become the person that does the bullying.
(3) Young girl takes her own life due to bullying.
Beautiful, smart, young girl commits suicide because she can no longer deal with her daily hell.
No bullying story is the same.
Bullying stories differ from person to person,
with the severity level being different.
People don't handle what they go through the same, because of this
the overall outcome of bullying is uncertain.
But what we do know is that it is very common for:
- Victims of bullying to become the victimizer.
- Victims of bullying to commit suicide.
- Victims of bullying to gain psychological damage (or depression) in their lives.
If you are a victim of bullying I encourage you to not keep this in, reach out to your loved ones.
If you are experiencing thoughts of suicide or depression, please let those close to you know.
You can be helped!
It's never too late!
If you are strong enough,
find your voice.
Stand up to those bullies!
No one has the right to detach you from yourself!
You are strong, beautiful, and worthy of respect!