Why can't I be good enough anywhere?

[Anonymous]

Everyone I meet eventually hates me. I think even my family does, and they just lie to themselves that they like me because we're related. When I try, I fuck up and make everything worse. If I don't try, I don't have a chance, and sometimes I still fuck up.

I have no skills, I'm not good at anything whatsoever. The best I can do is drawing and it's still shit that nobody wants to be bothered with.

I try so hard to be nice to people, and it annoys them. If I don't try to be nice, they still don't like me.

No guy will date me, yes, even the short, poor, or "ugly" guys with weak jawlines, acne, whatever tf men are whining about. They hate me too. I just want to be good enough for someone.

Not even employers want me. They hate me too. I never get hired anywhere.

I'm still in high school too, as a fucking adult. I'm going to graduate at 19 fucking years old, like an absolute idiot. My grades aren't even average because my stupid parents told me a "C" was okay, so my GPA is like 2.5 or something.

Long question, hardly a real one either, more of an excuse to write a diary entry and put it online. Guess I'm having a really bad day. I wish I could just give up and never care again. I still wonder what's wrong with me.

[Staximus]

First of all, relax. You're just having one of those teenage freakouts that a lot of young people have when they don't know what they want to do with their life yet.

The first thing you need to do is fix your attitude. If you want to improve yourself or your situation, you have to make an effort and tell yourself that you can do it. The first step to moving forward in life is not giving up.

Just be a good honest person to people and also to yourself and little will like you. If they don't, then the hell with them. Don't be miserable all the time and don't make yourself miserable with your thoughts and actions. People don't want to be around a Debbie downer all the time. Your mood affects others and if you are projecting misery onto them, they are not going to want you around. Negativity ruins their mood and they are too weak or ignorant to know how to let it roll off their back or help you with your mood and outlook.

Sometime you have to drag yourself out of hell one step at a time until you find peace of mind. Don't give up.

[Asker]

I'm not outwardly negative to people who I don't know very well and I want to like me.

[Staximus]

You're negative and have a terrible opinion of yourself and that is the first thing you need to fix. It is your mindset that is causing all your grief. Maybe go see a psychologist if you can afford it, or start reading some kind of self help books on positive attitude and how to learn to love yourself. You have to stop tearing yourself apart.

[Staximus]

Stop tearing yourself down and start building yourself up. You can improve your mindset and your life but it's not going to happen overnight. One step at a time. You can't build a good life in one day.

[Guy13]

Part-time job? Bojangles makes 15 plus an hour.