I've been called weird by literally 80% of the people I know at some point in my life. I know the percentage that doesn't call me that straight to my face just thinks it to themselves in silence.
I was always shy, I was diagnosed with social anxiety at twelve but I know other shy people and I know no one thinks of them as weird. People also tell me I have a sweet personality and I'm sure my looks help too so at least I'm not perceived as the creepy girl
But it's the most hurtful thing when everyone tells me I'm so weird. I know it's because of my personality but I don't know what's wrong with how I act. I'm scared to meet new people because of it because I know they'll tell me the same thing, it's always like that
People in real life tell me, random people I play on Discord with do, even my own family. Recently I talked to a past friend of mine on Discord and he told me "you're still as weird as you used to be" he at least also told me he's glad I haven't changed because he liked me but still 🙃
I don't know what I'm doing wrong and I feel like I'll never change. Recently I noticed my parents are both weird as hell too but I can't pinpoint what it is exactly and my worst fear is that I'll end up like them, all alone. I feel like I'm stuck in an endless loop and I don't even know who I am or how I'm supposed to act anymore because I'm always trying my best and I know I'm always good to everyone and this is what I get in return. I recently have found few friends but I know I'm no one's first choice. What can I do?
