Is it fucked up to call my bd while I'm getting fucked by another man?

He cheated on me constantly while I was pregnant and was always posted up with other girls on his social. He drunk calls me and try's to tell me he loves me and all of that but I sort of want to get him back for all those times he disrespected me 👿. Is that messed up?

Is it fucked up to call my bd while I'm getting fucked by another man?
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