How to recover from hitting rock bottom in life?

[Anonymous]

I knew it was coming and thought I could control it. I failed.

But years of pressure, stress, anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts.. all compiled to an explosive climax. I had a complete mental breakdown... that in retrospect I could see coming, but at the time I thought I could hold off.

Just to give an example, within one day, I broke several things in apartment... and nearly got into a car accident... Just one day! I was a anxious wreck.

But the true collapse came later.

I lashed out of a neighbor friend (a girl), verbally attacking them on the phone, and then damaging their vehicle. This led to me telling them to call the police... and me getting arrested.

Afterwards, I had no choice but to accept several realities. That I needed to get help, that I needed to open up to people that I refused to acknowledge.

But now what do I do? How do I fix things? How do I regain the respect of my neighbor, and other people who saw this collapse?

What are the first steps?

[pervertedjester]

Find a simple happy thought. Focus on it. Use it to pick yourself up. Then focus on getting yourself right before working on fixing things with others.

[dustybiker2]

Stand up.