Young Love: An Experience I Can Never Reclaim

[Hahathehaters]

In the next coming months, I will be turning 22. There is an issue that has burdened me for the longest time and has brought about so much emotional chaos. I can painfully say that for almost twenty-two years of my life, I have never had a girlfriend.

My life has been "unique," I can say the very least. Growing up, I was a very sheltered teenager. I didn't interact successfully, I had difficulties socializing with peers, and I pretty much remained to myself. I was quirky, awkward, and I missed a lot of school due to mental health issues.

Walking the halls of my high school, I saw teens getting intimate with each other. I saw boyfriends attending to their crying girlfriends having bad days. I saw couples making out and holding hands. This reminded me of my singleness and loneliness. I wanted to be in those guys' shoes. I wanted to be the knight in shiny armor. I wanted to be a girl's everything.

There is something about young love that adult relationships could never replicate even if they wanted to. These relationships occurred in one's youth, where the love was spontaneous, free, and innocent. This special type of love was about exploring each other's feelings. These feelings are often euphoric, new, and exciting.

First love, or young love, is very special in itself. The bonds that are created are some of the strongest and overwhelming connections you can have with the opposite sex. They often follow you for life, forming expectations of what you want and don't want in future partners.

Many people refer to their first loves as the "benchmark standard." All future, subsequent relationships are frequently compared to the first, whether intentionally or unintentionally.

Some of the best love stories are those where relationships ignite in high school (or even earlier) and last for a lifetime. Where a couple grew up together and was able to experience all stages of their lives with each other. Even stories of high school sweethearts who broke up and reunited later in life can generate all sorts of heart-melting emotions.

Again, these relationships occurred during a time of being carefree. A time where youthful memories were made and responsibilities were limited.

One of the biggest regrets of my life is that I never was able to experience this. I cannot go back even if I wanted to. I would trade anything to be able to relive my life again and experience the opportunities that I lost. But, unfortunately, you only have one shot at life.

Moving forward, I want to accomplish the nearly impossible. I want to find a gorgeous woman who is like me and was unable to experience those same opportunities I missed out on. I want us to be able to be each other's first loves and to experience those overwhelming, new emotions with each other.

I will travel the world if I have to. I will make it a life's mission to find that perfect woman. When I do, she will be my everything.

[Bluemax]

Wow. Write this mytake and then deactivate.

For anyone who might be reading...

Finding the love of your life in high school is the exception; not at all the rule. Many people build up all sorts of romantic notions about first lives which don't resemble reality. My benchmark relationship was my last, nor my first.

[HookingSwan]

It's awesome that you said that :D

[OrdinaryGentleman]

The reason he deactivated is because he was kicked by admins for stalking multiple young women on this site.

[IHateBeingaMan]

i totally empathize with you