First of all don't jump to any conclusions. We (both married with children) never got physical in any way unless sitting/standing close to eachother, hand on my back when passing behind me and nudging elbows/knees under the table mean anything. But attention, talking/joking, feeling around us (I'd call it gut) telling me I'm way beyond friendship boundaries and that makes me a cheat just as if we had sex.
I met him 3 years ago and from the day one I felt something I never wanted to feel and never thought could happend, to feel something for a man other than my housband. I didn't try to aproach him even as a friend but some strange force had a plan on it's own. HE started talking to me, texting, building a connection and I didn't find the power within me to stop it on time. Now that it started rolling down the hill I don't have the will to stop it.
I still only asume he feels the same as I do, cause we never talk about it out open (I'm too scared of any answer I could hear) but rather as jokes. But he started hinting an attraction he feels for me and pushes my limits farther every time. Last time for the first time he admitted he thinks about me. He said he thinks about my messages all the time (even though he text me more), that they preoccupy him and can't think about anything else.
I don't think either of us is going to do something about our feelings but it's still a torture that I can never end unless he does.
I try to make connection to his wife and kids too, so we could all become friends (cause I don't want to lose him from my life) but he avoid talking to me when she and my housband are present.
I still love my housband and our marriage doesn't suffer because of my infatuation. I wrote this to show you all not to condemn married people who started to feel for another person what they feel cause not all wonted it and asked for it. Not all are strong enough to run from it (and they know they should). You never know what awaits you around the corner.