Hi there, I've seen so so many questions and threads regarding abortion, for sure they will be until the end of time re a varied response.
There are quite often so very little examples given regarding whether abortion or pro life is the correct way to go. So today I feel inspired to give a different life view, my own, one very personal story of how this played a role in my life...
I was always of the view point I sure hope I never have to be in that position re considering terminating a pregnancy along with that I did not judge others, however, I had/have heard stories of women who have had numerous even 7 terminations, now that I do struggle with. Anyways my own situation was I had come out of a marriage to a first gulf war soldier the war had such damage to his mentality unfortunately it played a huge part in our marriage ending, the good news is that after being friends from high school we still are to this day.
After a year of that marriage ending I was with a new partner, he at that time had a son who was just to turn one years of age, now this child came from a one night stand, the mother chose to keep the child and he stood up and was supporting him. I preferring a more natural way of life chose a contraceptive method called the persona which at the time was sold with an accuracy better than now at 94% only. You pee’d on sticks like pregnancy tests to test your likelihood to get pregnant got green for all clear, amber for be careful, red for danger zone. Well needless to say within three months! I got pregnant...this was not suitable at all for a new relationship, for myself for him and especially regarding the situation for his sons welfare.
I made a decision to terminate the pregnancy, this was the worst decision for my own mental and emotional state of mind as a woman I've ever made...for sure it was THE turning point in my life...that said...i spent years and years afterwards with his son at the weekends watching him loving his son and his son loving him, every weekend ripping my heart out, i honestly feel it was like Karma, he went through a time where he would say Daddy all the time, every time he said it, it was like a knife in my heart, again i took it as a kind of universal punishment for the decision i made.
The decision to terminate was for the overall the move I made at the time, as it happens we stayed together and when his son was 6 I got pregnant with our first child another son then three years later we had a daughter. We stayed together for almost 14years.
No matter how things worked out and how looking at my two children now and yes if id kept the first they wouldn't exist because of how life/time works out, I still feel that it was the biggest mistake I ever made and it was wrong. Despite this I am still a supporter that in this life a person has the right to choose what move to make. No matter the life changing devastating effects it had on my own personal state of mind which has been a major factor ever since, I would not be where I am now with my two most awesome children, despite that I STILL declare it was the worst move I ever made….
When I got pregnant with my first child I can so clearly recall getting to the 8 week point then the 12 week point and so on and every time I indulged in this it punished me more in return at the child I had decided to not have. I would say these were the first real moments of realisation of what I had done.
Now when I say what I had done, that is how I feel myself, no matter the situation I was in at the time, no matter taking on the whole situation and his situation, I have always accepted as the ancient symbol of YIN and YANG there is a whole and it is entire it is neither one or the other, so that is why I can truly say YES I made a decision at the time based purely upon the circumstance and coming from a mentality of how if ever I would like to raise a child for the better good. Also YES it was the most damaging decision I ever made, IN ITS OWN REGARD, I also accept if I hadn't ever of been through that maybe I never would of gone on to have two of the most awesome children ever.
Now ftr if there any offensive responses I WILL report these, by sharing this my take i know i am willingly opening myself to views that will only add fuel to my self hating fire, if so, so be it, however, at least have the intellect and human compassion with any responses...is all i can ask xx