I had a huge fight with FWB.

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ok so I been in the friends with benefits relationship for nearly 7 months, caught feelings, etc. I was under the impressioned that he cared about me too by his actions.and because he said he did. but he from the beginning said that he didn't want to commit to anyone because he was at point in his life where we wants to be selfish for once and concentrate on his one life. he even complained when his little brother came to live with him, stating the same reason, he wanted to be alone. So ok here is what happens on thursday.i ask if he is sleeping with other women? he says not right now.but if the opportunity arises he would take advantage of it. I flare up.cuz I was thinking this guy cares.and I go off on him pretending I am so mad because I don't want to be at high risk for stds by sleeping with a large # of people ( or him doing that). he is like " I lost some respect for you because of your ridiculous accusations, you got me upset, well done. ".(I was pretty much calling him a man whore).then friday morning I send him this text "i mad because all you can think about is getting pussy like a typical man. I am mad because over the past 6 months I had developed feelings for you. I am bad because to you this is just a boost for your ego. I am mad because I was so stupid to put myself in this situation thinking something good would come from it. I am mad because I thought I could control my feelings but I cant. I am mad because it wasn't suppose to end up like this but it did, and I lost complete control of the situation. I am mad because I made you my priority while to you I was only an option. I am mad because when I am with other men that actually want to be with me, all I can think about is how I want you. I am mad because I feel so weak and vulnerable and I HATE it. and most of all I am mad because every horrible thing my father ever said about me is becoming reality.he told me the only thing I would be good at in life is lying on my back, when I look at my past I realize he is right, my boyfriends never gave a shit about me, they just enjoyed f'ing me over and over. please don't respond" I don't know if I should call him and try to talk to him.leave it alone .or wait for him to call me.part of me is like I am just playing myself, and part of me is like just talk to him.what do I do?
I had a huge fight with FWB.
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