we talked everyday and FaceTimed I told him how happy I was. We were basically dating but didn’t label it. This went on healthy until April 18/2021.
he has really bad anxiety, I was having a hard day I’m a nurse I worked like a weeks worth of nights and was grumpy and frustrated I still couldn’t see him and took it out on him.
I don't know what happened but he lost his job and we didn’t talk for a couple of weeks.
Come may we talked and he wanted to be intentional friends. I said I don’t want to lose him from my life and I still want to continue the plan that when the borders open we can date. He got a new job an hour away from his house but didn’t move. In late may he told me he met a girl at work that he really likes, but he isn’t ready to date or anything.
come end of June we were still talking but I could feel him pushing me away. I booked a flight to see him since I was off work and just had surgery. He told me the girl he was talking to is now his girlfriend.
This was my serious first long term over a year type of relationship, my heart is still shattered. I paid for an American nursing license and planned to move to the states in September/October for him.
it feels a lot like he’s in a rebound relationship to go from me to her so quickly and make it official so quickly doesn’t make any sense to me. We were so close for almost 2 years. Best friends. I told him I couldn’t continue to be his friend and that he’s hurt me really bad. I haven’t heard from him since.
the worst part is that I still miss him a lot and I still want things to work out. I’m sure with time I may change my mind. But if I did want him back what do I do?