Sit down and I'll tell ye a tail of love and tragedy.
When I was a young lad barely able to call myself a man, I was struck with fancy for a dow eyed, tender hearted girl. Sure I was easily enchanted by women at such an impressionable age but she was different as I was not feverishly trying to steal her love. I quite simply felt at home in her presence. I knew then as I do now that I wanted to be in her life in whatever form and that I was in love. Many years have passed now and I'm sad to say we're no longer together not that we were ever in a relationship because despite my feeble attempt in middle school to ask her out which she indirectly showed opposition to at the time. Despite this we had a wonderful friendship for many years after and I know that I'm in her heart as well. Recently I reached back out to her and all these feelings came up once again. I hadn't realized I'd tried so hard to suppress them from the disappointment of no longer being in each other's life. She has a boyfriend now and I'm as single as I've always been but I feel I still love her even after years of heartbreak and that I still want to make us happen if I'm to admit my deepest desires. However I'm happy she's found someone who cares for her and wouldn't do anything to jeopardize her happiness. I'm just wondering what that means for me, I've even been with other women sense but I can't lie I miss her so damn much. I take responsibility for not trying harder. Even though she never pursued me back I still feel that was my duty as a man and I failed, It'd be a different story today, I suppose I regret not making her mine when I had the sliver of a chance. Now I'm quite cynical about dating altogether.
When I was a young lad barely able to call myself a man, I was struck with fancy for a dow eyed, tender hearted girl. Sure I was easily enchanted by women at such an impressionable age but she was different as I was not feverishly trying to steal her love. I quite simply felt at home in her presence. I knew then as I do now that I wanted to be in her life in whatever form and that I was in love. Many years have passed now and I'm sad to say we're no longer together not that we were ever in a relationship because despite my feeble attempt in middle school to ask her out which she indirectly showed opposition to at the time. Despite this we had a wonderful friendship for many years after and I know that I'm in her heart as well. Recently I reached back out to her and all these feelings came up once again. I hadn't realized I'd tried so hard to suppress them from the disappointment of no longer being in each other's life. She has a boyfriend now and I'm as single as I've always been but I feel I still love her even after years of heartbreak and that I still want to make us happen if I'm to admit my deepest desires. However I'm happy she's found someone who cares for her and wouldn't do anything to jeopardize her happiness. I'm just wondering what that means for me, I've even been with other women sense but I can't lie I miss her so damn much. I take responsibility for not trying harder. Even though she never pursued me back I still feel that was my duty as a man and I failed, It'd be a different story today, I suppose I regret not making her mine when I had the sliver of a chance. Now I'm quite cynical about dating altogether.
