I have always been fascinated by teachers. I got emotionally attached and flirted with some of my teachers from teenage to the age 23. I am a girl and 23 years old currently. I have always been a shy and quiet person. I am known for getting good grades and I am very interested in studying. I have never been in a relationship, never dated, never had a male friend. I am straight. Ever since I was a child, I have always been more fascinated by the teachers instead of my classmates. I always get impressed by them and always find them more interesting. The teachers also considered me a very nice girl, a very nice student and smart kid. They praised me a lot, too. I want to be a teacher, too. When I was in 8th standard (my age 15 or 16 years old), I developed a crush on a married male teacher (who was above 40 years of age). He also flirted back, everything happened for 3 years. Had his dreams, treated him very nicely. Then in 11th standard (when I saw 17 and 18 years old), I had crushes on two married male teachers (they were also above 40), I always praised them, flirted with them, helped them a lot. They also figured out my feelings and flirted back often. It lasted for 2 years. Then I had to leave that place. I missed them a lot, too. Then from the age 19, I got in college. I had a crush on a female married professor (even if I am not attracted to females). She was above 50. I kept thinking about her a lot and had dreams of her, too. We helped each other a lot, treated each other nicely and stayed in contact through messages and phone calls. She said she loves me a few times (not romantically). At the same time, I had a huge crush on a married male teacher, who was 40, too. I never flirted with him. But had secretly deep feelings. It lasted for 5 years. Treated him very nicely, had dreams of him many times. Then just a year ago, I got attracted to another married male professor, who is above 50. We stayed in contact through messages and phone calls.
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I do feel regret for my past actions, I know that I shouldn't have flirted with married people like that. I was an immature teenager. I respect all my teachers a lot...
