Am I just paranoid?

[Juicyred921]

I’ve been seeing this guy for 2 years now. We started off as “just friends”. We both just got out of relationships and weren’t ready to date. So we kept it casual while seeing other people until we both admitted we had feelings and became exclusive. Now we’ve been official for over a year and got engaged. But for some reason I question everything. Does he really love me? Is he using me? Is he secretly talking to someone? There’s no prof. His family tells me he loves me. It doesn’t seem like he’s texting girls. But there are a lot of them on his instagram. We haven’t been very intimate. He says it’s because of his medication. And I know he’s going through a lot right now. More than most people go through in 5 years time. He was extremely loving before he started taking his medicine and before all the bs. But I’m worried it’s more than that.

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This might all be coming from my lack of self confidence. I’m not that pretty, nor do I have a nice body. I lost 100 lbs. 50 after I met him. Still have at least 30 to go. But he’s used to dating beautiful women. And some of those women still want him back. And I guess I’m also insecure because of how we started. Friends with benefits. Knowing he was seeing other women while seeing me. It still upsets me.

[weysally]

by your pic your pretty, so don't put yourself down. it could be medication as to why no intimacy, but and a small but, I knew a guy who said that he couldn't be sexual active, I found out months later that he masturbated too much

[Juicyred921]

I know he’s medication does lower sexual drive. I read it. And stress from life doesn’t help. He has been trying that sex honey stuff. And I occasionally give him oral. But he says he really doesn’t have any sexual desire at all. Even masterbating. I thought it was because of me. I don’t turn him on. Maybe I try that butt leggings crap I see online everywhere. Lol

[weysally]

well at least you know its not another girl, good luck to you

[Juicyred921]

I hope not. But you never know. People lie. And what if his drive comes back? He was kind of a hoe before we started darting exclusively. What if he turns back into a hoe?

[Mart10]

I think it's just over thinking. If you want to know if he's texting other people then go through his phone. Or maybe tell you want to do the challenge where partners go through each others phone

[Juicyred921]

We know each other’s phone passwords. I have nothing to hide. I didn’t see anything on his. But what if he deleted conversations? I did see a girl send him naked photos but it was one of those automated porn things. He just replied, no thanks.