We dated when we were 19-21 and it was a long distance relationship which he ended in the most brutal way. We had agreed to be in an open relationship and he never communicated that he wasn't comfortable with that and I wasn't sensitive enough to pick up on queues so he ghosted me and tried to replace me with a girl who looked a lot like me -.- ... Anyway that didn't work out and he attempted to reconcile but I felt too hurt to even speak to him. Like the break up had me really fucked up. Years passed and once I felt like I could keep him at arms length I reached out for closure because I felt like mine & his relationship was still getting in the way of my life. When we met, he was a completely different person, so mature and grown, able to communicate and express himself clearly. He wants us to reconcile, he is willing to risk it all and move anywhere I wanna live, he's unofficially asked whether I'd be down to marry etc. I also still feel a certain way about him, like when we make eye contact it still trips me up the way it used to 5 years ago. He seems to like me too. It's just that I have this bad feeling, this lump in my throat. I feel too scared to even attempt anything serious. What should I do? Have you been in a similar position and were you able to work it out?
My ex wants to get back together but I don't trust him?
