Meeting a man I have been talking to for the first time... but im fat?

I have been talking too a man for the past several years and a long distance relationship kinda formed but then life got in the way and we both went our separate ways for about 6 months. I am now about to fly to see him for a few days face to face. here's my issue... i feel extremely fat and have zero confidence because i have never been this big. Im 5"3 and 149. Im so afraid he will take one look at me and just die. I gained weight after a hysterectomy i had and I've never sent him pictures since except for my face. I want to cancel my trip but actually i have blown him off over this subject in the past which is why we went our separate ways. He thinks i dont care about him and i really do!! i just didn't want him to see me so freaking fat. What should i do?

Meeting a man I have been talking to for the first time... but im fat?
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