when I was in school, many guys had a crush on me but non of them dare to ask me out. I knew about this because the female friends told me about the guys. long story, I don't have any experience in dating life. and I still don't know if the guy has bad intention on me or not. I can't see the difference..
as I turned older, some guys I met acted as if they fall in love with me, we made love but we didn't have sex.. after months seeing them.. I realized they see me as a friend with benefits.
I feel devastated every time I knew how they felt towards me... I was always cared for them, always be there for them...
I'm still virgin and I wish I could stay virgin until marriage. I just want to be special for someone who really love me.
If I meet a new guy, I don't want this thing happen again. I don't want to be seen a friend with benefits material. I want to be a girlfriend and wife material.
I wish you could give me advice to get a right guy.. I almost turn 30. I want to get marry..
