The day before my wedding day i found out he had cheated while we were engaged, i was very torn i loved him. I felt like i needed time to process but I married him, everything was already arranged and the guests were there. 3 years later and i don't feel happy, we argue a lot, i have lost some feelings i think over time, & have been avoiding sex and don't enjoy it. I feel really guilty. But i also care about him and don't want to mess up our lives, i dont think i can fully trust him again. What’s wrong with me, I've tried to make it work for so long and I'm still having these thoughts. Lately I have felt myself feeling attracted to other guys, i would never cheat but Its worrying me and I really feel stuck on what I should do for long term. I am 31 and I feel like im too old to start over and I dont want to ruin our lives. But I probably shouldn't be wanting other guys in my head? Or maybe I need to suck it up and try to be happy? its been 3 years though, shouldn't i be happy by now?
Stuck in a rut and dont know what to do?
