I've always wanted a family, children, a big house, happiness but now I'm not really sure. I've come to the realization that I don't really like men, sure I like my boyfriend but men make me uncomfortable, they're rude, most are gay and have disgusting kinks, don't genuinely care for women or their feelings, will stare down other women, check them out in front of their partners, will sexualize their own daughters and female family members. Men have always been ungrateful for women. I don't want a daughter because I'm afraid for her, most women who have been married have divorced because they realized that they were never happy. I like my boyfriend but rarely these days, he can be very aggressive and get violent about certain topics, he says really mean things that he disguises as "jokes" most men do that to their gfs, I'm beginning to understand lesbians a bit more each day. Why do I feel like this?