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What an I supposed to do and should I feel bad for this?

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I just wondered how other people feel when admitting they've cheated in the past.
For context the guy I've been seeing for over a year asked me if I've ever cheated, as it was a question asked during a TV show. So I answered yes, I told him I kissed a guy when I wasblackout drunk, when I was 18. I was honest about this. I also told my partner at the time and we worked through it.

I'm 29 now and have had 3 long term serious relationships whereby there was no repeat of this.
I would never do it again as I've actually been cheated on myself.

Anyway, after he asked we just went back to normal talking and socialising about other things.
I feel extremely uncomfortable about how easy it is for him to not resolve or close the convo.
I'm an anxiously attached person. I've made many mistakes in my life but I own them and don't shy away from being open about them.

I at least wanted him to say he appreciates my honestly and that it doesn't change anything between us.
Now I keep thinking that he doesn't want me.
If it changes things, then I'd rather just know now then beat myself up about it.

He also hasn't resolved conflict when we had a disagreement an he compared me to his ex.
Instead he wanted me to act normal for the rest of the holiday when I was upset to the point of feeling sick. All I ever want is for him to discuss things an air the issue so we can move past it or just decide to not be together.

I don't know how to communicate this to him, as I feel I have in the past and he has just doesn't change.
I just want to be with a guy who comforts me after a disagreement and just resolves it. He us very stubborn an has an ego.
What an I supposed to do and should I feel bad for this?
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