Feel like my boyfriend would be happier without me, what do I do?

[Anonymous]

We live together and I have health problems,one of the main ones is anxiety,it stops me from doing a lot of things.I don't work either,because of all this,I don't have much self esteem.And because of my anxiety and my past,I question him a lot.Sometimes I can't control my anxiety and I just excessively worry and ask him questions.I have been having anxiety attacks a lot lately and I feel so embarrassed,he must think I'm crazy.I must look so unattractive to him,being so insecure,having anxiety,no job and stopping him from things he wants to do,because of how I feel.I really don't want to lose him and he knows this,but I feel like he is better off without me.He is going to be going to uni as well,where he'll probably find better options :(. I think I'm sabotaging my own relationship and I don;t know how to stop,there's probably only so much he can tolerate..Please help me,I don't know what to do :(. All I want is to be with him and make him happy and have a normal relationship.

[Leeshanny]

Hay girl.. I've been in the exact same situation and I learnt to control my emotions really while... my advice is work on yourself... go to collage get a bursary... cause that is what I did... I had two kids and I did not work and I had anxiety but I thought to myself that it's not worth it for me my health my mental problem... find something you want to do with your life... the collages give out bursary and they pay for ur traveling your books.. everything.. I promise you... you'll feel much better about yourself... today my anxiety is gone... invest in yourself... i promise you... you'll be better off investing in ur self

[toulouse]

what Q. do you ask

[Asker]

I just don't know what to do,should I push my problems aside and show him there's more to me than my problems?And I don't want to lose him,how can I learn to stop sabotaging my relationship because of the way I am ?

[GingerRage]

Break up wiith him.