Questions: Relationships

I am in a relationship with a really really awesome guy.

In uni I got to know someone else. With the time him and I became very close. He told me he likes me and I haven't't been able to stop thinking about him. We never went further than hugging though.

Now whenever my boyfriend kisses me or tries to initiate something more I actually feel like I am cheating on my friend.

Obviously it will matter more or less depending on which people are misunderstanding snd what the consequences may be, but still, overall would you say you are someone who is bothered by being misunderstood and if so do you resign yourself to being misunderstood, or try to make yourself heard,

or are you someone who does not care much as in you will make an effort to be clear but after that you’ve done what you can and people get you or they don’t, Cesar is vie 🤷🏻‍♀️

I hate being misunderstood it’s one of my biggest issues. I mean I think k it’s good to be clear but it bothers me to I think an unhealthy degree to have people misinterpret health esp when I think they are doing it on purpose or just being lazy as apposed to simply genuinely not getting my meaning. If it’s genuine I don’t kind at all it’s the more disingenuous stuff that gets me. I think bc I grew up in a really crazy environment where true was raise raise ass true every moment was like being on trial by people who only wanted to amuse themselves with your earnestness and see how far you’d go to prove your gawd turn just F you up for life anyhow—- no matter what I did no matter how hard I tried to be correct & precise I was gaslit and punished for stuff I didn’t do.

But I’m no longer in that situation & I don't know I think I should work in letting people do the work if they want to understand something they can ask if not that’s their problem… but basically that’s not my personality lol I’m gonna explain stuff till it sticks or someone walks away 🤷🏻‍♀️