Yesterday I was trying to crush garlic in the garlic presser but due to some bizarre genetic mutation, the cloves were 4-7 times their regular size because they didn’t separate into their distinct compartments like ordinary garlic bulbs, meaning they were harder to crush because they fit evenly into the crush all around meaning their was the typical pressing of my thumb pressure but the pull of unequal gravity from different ends of the crusher were no existent. It would not crush out of the crusher the way garlic normally did and required much more force than regular garlic.
In the same way, until you give up your ego and the bitterness and stubbornness that comes from it, you will be a stumbling block both to yourself and others because you will be incapable of contorting your emotional and psychological make up to meet the demands of repentance and evolving moral dialogue and due to your vapid self-servitude you will also rule out the refreshing novelty that comes with being exposed to the insight of God.
I said in another my take that you cannot use the carnal consciousness to fight the carnal consciousness
When you surrender your ego by driving it out systematically or all at once, the spiritual conscience enters your soul and that spiritual consciousness is able to drive out the carnal consciousness which is the carnal heart and the carnal seed which is the carnal ego
Once the ego is driven out by meditating and training our all the bias and luxurious self gratification, you can awake the memory sponge that ceaselessly soaks up the knowledge and power of God