I’ve made a mistake 😔😞?

Hey guys…I feel so guilty and I feel like I lost happiness and never gonna be happy anymore…I’m Muslim living in Palestine…and virgin…last week I met a guy on telegram and decided to go with him for my first hookup…and we made out without putting his thing inside me…. I feel like I betrayed my parents, betrayed my self, betrayed my family and I feel so disgusting and awful. I feel so guilty so so guilty and I can’t take it anymore.. also what if someone loved me and wanted to marry me and I told him this.. no one will ever marry me …please help me also I can’t tell my parents this or I’ll be killed.. and I’m scared that he filmed me too …. please help me please please I’m begging for help …I will never do it again never ever 😔😔😔😔😞😞😞😞
I’ve made a mistake 😔😞?
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