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When I see my girlfriend I feel love and attraction. But I also feel anxious. Like very anxious.

When I do things I enjoy by myself, or with most other people, they feel more fulfilling. As my girlfriend usually judges them as teen stuff, and she doesn't really seem to enjoy most of them. She's just there passing time.

This doesn't seem with specific things, but most things. She seems to like activities where you are passive, rather than active. And social rather than creative.

Paradoxically she also seems to dislike engaging with most people, where I like to exchange with persons of all kinds. She likes to live more isolated, and I like to find my neighbors and talk with them.

She loses most friendships where I have very long term friendships. She says I only have friends because there are friends from school.

The bad part about this is that my girlfriend usually want to drive me away from the things that I like and enjoy most. Even from my work, she finds it unappealing where I'm highly passionate about it. It looks rather a lack of an appeal for everything that is not just buying stuff, dining out, and cleaning the house.

So it has reached a point that being away from her makes me feel good, and being with her makes me feel like I'm selling my life cheap. That I should completely change myself to be as this woman wanted, and that is exactly the opposite of what I enjoy.

So the other day I got invites from my university for a Brand Development role and an Event marketing role.

1. Because I’ve already interned with the uni before
2. I’m really good at video editing and making media for social media.

I’m not really worried about the interviews, I’m confident I can land at least one of the jobs. The problem comes when my brothers think I’m wasting my time since I did a degree in Creative Computing (Gaming) and now to them seems I’m not using that degree just to get trapped in a 9-5.

I’ve been applying to game related Jobs since August 2023, improving my resume and portfolio but I’ve only ever gotten 2 interviews and never heard again from either. I’ve probably applied to 500+ jobs by now, so I was so happy I got an offer for two interviews as part of my universities new graduate scheme. My plan is to work for the university whilst improving my portfolio and apply to game related marketing jobs to show I have experience.

But my first older brother I texted this about says this I’m going to be wasting my time and it’s a trap that’s going to keep stuck in that job. It’s not worth it because it only pays £25,000 per annum. For a first graduate job that’s pretty good in my opinion, yeh it’s close minimum wage but in this economy its harder to find a GOOD job that pays this much especially when your 21. Anyways when I tried explaining that to him he just left me on read

My second oldest brother said pretty much the same thing but, that I need to value my time into my portfolio rather than chase money, which is not exactly what I’m doing, like I said I can earn whilst building my portfolio. I will say he’s is worried that I keep changing my mind about what particular what I want to do, whether its game concept art, vfx or UI, but I’ve been applying to all sorts of roles and have gotten nowhere so I don’t think I can be too choosy because who knows when an opportunity like this can happen again.

Thoughts?