Search Results: go back to that very first person

There is a woman I am completly and utterly in love with and have been from the second I heard her voice over the phone when we spoke to each other the first time for work.

It didn't take long for us to form a friendship. Almost immediately. And over a short time we became very close emotionally. We were talking to each other several times every day, but never meeting in person. We met once when I drove to her town on her birthday. I was there for something else but if I'm honest, that thing was an excuse to try and see her. She agreed but I think we were both shy, not many words were exchanged and I left feeling soo deflated. Until she phoned me a couple of hours later and asked why I didn't want to stay with her longer. We called each other 8 times that day after meeting in the morning.

She supported me when my Grandad died. She knew something was wrong and called me to find out. I don't know how she knew, there was no way she could, but she did. My Grandad was my favourite person, and she helped me through it.

This relationship has existed for 2 years now. Although we are not as close as we once were. She used to answer every call whether she was available or not. Even in her sleep. Now she goes hours before texting me back, if she texts back at all. Its been worse over the past couple of months. She won't take my calls, and she texts me as an aquantance rather than a friend. I really miss the relationship we had, and I miss her.

My life before her was not good. She tempted me out of my shell in to the big wide world and has inspired me to live my life. I'm doing things now which I never thought I'd ever do. I'm developing and becoming a better man for me, but because of her.

I want to tell her all of this. I want to thank her before I lose her entirely. I don't know what her reaction will be, I think she won't respond at all and that will be the end. But I don't want the regret of not telling her. I have enough of those.

Is sending my text a good idea?

Like seriously, number one rule on a first date... DO NOT, talk about your past relationships. You are not there to rehash your past, it about trying to make a connection with the other person and building a possible future.

Like seriously, this woman would not get off your past relationship, every time I tried to make conversation go a different way it came back to her and previous heartbreaks.

She starts straight up crying, she is like I am so sorry, it not you, it's me. She excuses herself to go to the bathroom. She comes back and she is like,

"I am so sorry it is not you. Actually, you are being so nice and sweet, and you are very good looking, it's just that..."

"I interrupt her, it's that you are not ready to be dating yet period, right?"

she's says, "I am so sorry, but yes. I just had no idea, until right now."

I said, "Yeah, I get it. You're like the fourth woman I met online, that comes online and thinks they are not going to meet a real person and when they do, they freak out because they are not ready yet."

She says, " Yeah, you are right, but it's not you. I am so sorry; you are so nice and handsome..."

Again, I just say, "just stop, you do not think I do not know I am a nice person? You do not think I know that I am a nice-looking man? Like I have heard that shit my whole life, and I do not need to hear it from you. Obviously, it's not enough for you, so basically after weeks of talking and you assured me you were ready, you basically wasted my time today."

I walked her to the car and wished her well in life.

How many of you have had something like this happen to you?