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(Your name),

These past few weeks have been "tearable" (inside joke) but also a huge wake-up call. I’ve done a lot of thinking, and you were right — I needed to get my life together.

I know my choices, especially with drinking, have hurt us. I’m proud to say that today marks one full month sober. I haven’t touched alcohol since that awful night and I never want to again. This time apart has made me realize you mean so much more to me than any bad habit. To make sure I stay on track, I started taking Naltrexone and I begin counseling on November 3rd. This isn’t another empty promise, it's a real change.

In the past month, I’ve passed my real estate exam, picked up extra shifts to pay off my debt, and even started going to the gym again (though I miss my gym partner). I’m doing these things for myself and because I want to be the kind of woman you once believed I could be.

You’ll always be someone I imagined building a life with. No matter what happens, please know how much I love you and how grateful I am that you have been a huge part of pushing me to become my best self.

Whatever happens next, thank you — truly — for everything.

With love,
Emma