It's gone on and off for a while now. They were running really high when tensions between me and society were critical and had almost guaranteed imminent bloodshed but as tensions finally fell, my thoughts went away. But now they're resurfacing in the wake of corruption and being continuously jabbed at for my past and how it's affecting my present. Sometimes I get to wondering while at the shooting range what it would look like if I shot someone. How do I get rid of these thoughts before they lead to actions?
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I have homicidal thoughts, how do I get rid of them?
I know that feeling quite well. It feels like an itch that can't be scratched or if you were dehydrated in a desert and your only way to relinquish it is to do that action.
I've experienced these urges ever since I was little, but when I was young I didn't really know what it was. I just know I enjoyed the experiencing of bringing pain on others as angsty and edgy as that sounds which is why I used to get in trouble a lot as a kid.
I remember being eight years old and contemplating whether or not I should kill my sister while holding a knife near her in the kitchen. Another being when I was eleven-years-old I started to suffocate a new puppy I got because I was so interested in this urge I had to kill it, but I let it go before any damage was done out of fear of being punished.
The thing is, is to distract and learn to control yourself. Try to not trigger urges and stay away from horror movies or situations that can cause them. Also, try to focus on a feeling or something more important which can be hard. This could be someone you love or the fear of being imprisoned for that action. By the way, don't rely on drugs as a way to distract yourself as that creates a whole another issue.
Talking about it & trying to work through the issue is probably your best in may be your only option. You should look into cognitive behavioral therapy. It's meant to find the root of any specific thought or behavior that may be troubling or disruptive to your life or career. I'm sure there are all type of courses online workbooks and whatnot. I've heard it can be effective in any area of your life and help to treat any impulsive behavior for example addiction or recidivism. I think the fact that you recognize the slippery slope Iran have a genuine desire to work through it it's promising. There's Hope out there man people are less judgmental than you think. Good luck
reason it out, say you do it... then what? you end up in jail, spend your life there living god knows what kind of life and for what? For not being able to control your impulses? We all feel like we wanna kill someone but we dont. Why? Cause if everyone did that we would all fear for anyone killing us. Thats why killing is not an answer. You also dont know how would you feel about the fact that you murdered people and how it would be to live with that. Who are you to decide who lives and takes other peoples life for granted? You should learn to control your impulses and better deal with your emotions like rage, maybe go to anger management class and meditation
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I've tried, it doesn't help. I want them to feel what I feel, what I intend to do to them is still nothing compared to what they've done onto me, but since I'm far more capable than them, it should about make us even.
Trust me you haven't really tried until you challenge your thinking, belifis and feelings. Not everythibg you thibk or feel is right. And you know this partly, there is a conflict in you and thats why you are asking this question. You should learn that literally everyone has some problem and suffers. You dont know details of someones life. As you have your problems everyone else its dealing with their issues. Its part of life. You know bullies? Bullies are usually people that have been molested and bullied themselves. Thats why they do it to others. Same reason u now want to hurt others. That isn't the way. You should also learn that life is not fair but if you ysf believe in fairness u should start from ysf and good values, not bad ones like hurting others. Then you are no better than them.
These thoughts are from the devil. He’s laughing at you because he’s getting to you... If you’re aware of this, you can stop these thoughts. This hatred and dwelling. I swear.
And I’m against all medication. My friend was on 2 kinds of meds and they canceled each other out because they don’t react well together, and some foods and beverages have the same reaction on medicine. The doctors didn’t know any better. She spent forever doing her own research because she felt worst. 22 meds, are you dead serious?
You’re surrounded by people who are draining you... you need to know that there are good people out there that you can trust and confide in. I promise.
That means if I go to hell, the devil will treat me well, at least. There I'll be better off than I was here because I'll have one person genuinely rooting for me
He hates God so much, he gets a kick out of taking down more souls to the fiery pits of Hell, which is for, eternity. So do yourself a favor, and suck it up
No one deserves it. If anything, they’re hurting themselves. No bully is truly happy with themselves. How they treat others is a reflection of how they feel about themselves. You have to forgive them to forgive yourself.
Forgiveness is why this stuff happens in the first place, a world where justice is truly present is a world where nobody treats people like this. The only thing I need to blame myself for is that every last one of them and their families aren't already dead.
And move on... Don’t try to associate with people who make you feel bad. Love yourself. I’m not very religious but if you’re really on the edge of breaking, listen to some Christian music. I’ve heard some great testimony’s. It might sound annoying for a while but if you have any shred of humanity left inside of you, it may start to bring you a sense of peace.
There is no such thing as a truly justice world. I personally think life on Earth is Hell. Consider how you react to situations and upheavals as a test from God. Know right from wrong. That is your power.
Excluded me, my parents physically and verbally abused me all throughout my childhood and only denied it and never apologized for any of it, my parents were and still are alcoholics, my brother was a drug addict, people always went out of their way to avoid me, they always talked badly of me behind my back, and whenever I called them on it, it was just denial and making fun of me for being beat up by my parents and brother as a kid.
I pretty much covered everything I need to say to you for now about saving yourself and setting you on the path to peace. Message me if you want a friend. 🖤
Why are you upset? What in life is making you feel this way?
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Everyone always looks down on me, judges me, hangs me out to dry, excludes me, and picks at my rough past. I feel that if I killed people, that would be a fair punishment for what they've done to me and other people like me.
They speak poorly of me, they ignore me, are overly cautious around me, or outright scold me. I reckon I'll be able to take plenty of people out before I'm caught, and it'll surely get their attention.
That’s your choice but you won’t have a good legacy and your family will most likely be ashamed to be related to you. Why don’t you try and fit in instead of destroy others? It seems much easier
I don't want to be like them, they're worthless pieces of trash who think they can get away with treating me like what they are. I try to be friendly and open, but they only respond with strong hostility.
I need more info to try and help. Do you have photos? Specific examples of where people have treated you poorly? I know for a fact that not everyone is like that. I am nice to literally everyone I meet always
That’s your opinion. I speak for myself when I say I am nice to everyone. Doesn’t matter if you are the cashier at Walmart or the cleaning lady at a hotel. I don’t care because everyone deserves to be treated with respect. Many people feel the same way.
Reach out for professional help. If they feel you're truly at risk for committing a crime, they'll put you in 24 hour observation and make sure you're okay.
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If they try that, they get to be the first people I take out
Get professional help. That’s the best advise in this situation
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I fear I'll just end up killing someone there because if they try to sedate me, I know damn well my next move will be to reach for my gun and make them sorry.
Look up a good therapist and be sure to do your research. Read reviews and such. You need to trust people. Even just a little bit. Not everyone is out to get you. People 97% of the time have good intentions. The world is a beautiful place filled with beautiful people. Let your guard down just this once so you can be at ease
What good could I possibly get from going anyways? Not one person has ever gone to an institution and not come out worse, if they ever come out at all, that is.
The minute I let my guard down, that'll be it. The reason I'm still here is because I haven't let it down. The only thing I could possibly get from going there is a decent body count
You know what i mean by therapist right? Like a middle aged person who listens to your problems? They might send you to a psychiatrist for meds. Most the people i know who have therapists are doing very well.
Dude nobody will kill you when you let your guard down. It’s like you live in the hood or something
I was on the last straw at going to war with those people, but I didn't have the proper weapons to take them out, so I used my hands and looked up how to make bombs.
Excluded me, my parents physically and verbally abused me all throughout my childhood and only denied it and never apologized for any of it, my parents were and still are alcoholics, my brother was a drug addict, people always went out of their way to avoid me, they always talked badly of me behind my back, and whenever I called them on it, it was just denial and making fun of me for being beat up by my parents and brother as a kid.
It also didn't help that I've never been on a date and have no friends, both were true then, and they're still true now, certainly not through a lack of effort on my part.
I don't know man, sex with a random doesn't have the same impact as sex with a good friend. Especially if you know you have to pay for it. It's not the girl's skill that matters but what she means to you
My dude, you just need a better self image, believe me. Shit really isn't that hard. It's all about how you carry yourself. I'm not that good looking. Like a 6 at best. Pulling girls isn't an issue though because I know what I'm doing and I'm confident. There's always room for improvement and always time to change. Give it a chance
I've tried for many years and it's only made my relationship with society worse, hence why I care so little about them as people and sometimes think of them as nothing more than targets I haven't shot yet.
Sounds to me you didn't try the right things. There's nothing wrong with being misanthropic. The world is shit, and so are most people, I agree. Doesn't mean you can't figure out how to enjoy it
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