Have you ever seen evil inside of yourself, and was the root of the evil... sadness?

[lightbulb27]

I recall the first time I recognized evil... it was front page Susan Smith... lying about what happened to her 2 kids when in fact, she'd sent them to their death. The twisted distorted image I saw was the worst printing job ever for her emotional expression was of conflicting emotions. I wish I'd saved that newspaper...

it was kinda like this, but I don't see the distortions...

Not long after, I had my own experience with feeling really hurt, disrespected... more than ever. My values were in the wrong place and as I ruminated the thoughts became evil. Evil meaning, harm others.. and not care. It was scary to observe, I was a "good" person. I discovered how anger is like a drop of dye in water... it shades everything.

I'd had a good life compared to many, but that doesn't matter when your core value is torn to shreds!

How could they... (note... the cure was my responsibility).

I told my boss I was taking a leave...3 weeks. Out of that... I found "Christ" for I saw the value in what He did... to save me from ruin. That started a process of healing a wounded heart that started in early life. It took decades. One persons solution may be different than another, that's fine. The answer here ultimately... responsibility.

My evil was rooted in sadness and despair. It was fuel for bad actions. Can you relate?

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I think fundamentally... the essence of evil is the lie... that is we are separated from our root energy... aka "God/love". It's a lie, but believing it... leads to all forms of debauchery... aka "Evil"... in all forms. some worse than others. That disconnect... is sadness.

There is evil, and thus good. I hope you can use such awareness to better yourself and better engage your fellow man (kind)... some of which, is suffering and crying out to be heard.

Yes I experienced evil in myself, I was in essence... sad

Yes I expereienced evil in myself, something else

I've never felt evil or had evil thoughts

Something else

[Anonymous]

I have a hard time calling it evil. I mean in essence you're right. And looking at it through faith you could call it evil. But while I'm a Christian. I struggle with this almost daily. So, apparently I'm not a very good Christian. I'm strong like stone and in other was fragile like glass. And if you touch any of my emotional wounds you will feel my wrath.

[lightbulb27]

that makes sense... wounds make fragility. I found the healing the salvation process to be instant, healing process to be long. change only occurs with discovery and resolution of those wounds... in effect... releasing the energy stored in the "program" of our mind, heart, body.

[lightbulb27]

people aren't given the tools to work on themselves, add to it we avoid chance for those wounds are emotional pain. Thus, it's hard work, often wounds surface in relationships.

[Opinion Owner]

Doesn't help when those wounds get
torn back open everytime you dare to trust again.

[lightbulb27]

Well no. but I found they will until healed. Remove from the source of pain... but the pain is the motivator for introspection and healing. I found the issues root back to childhood. Bible indicates such issues go back 3 generations, so may have been passed on. The solution is finding the beliefs/lies and letting God's love in to heal them and speak the truth. When healed, your discernment is sharpened... giving confidence, and thus avoidance of being hurt again.
If you hadn't heard of "Erickson Clark Chart" tool for indentifying where types of wounds occur in life. e. g. trust issue forms 0-2. There's a lot of help out there and it's discovery.
Wish you the best in your journey. I didn't make any progress until near 50. Sometimes we don't know what we don't know... until we know it...

[Agape93]

Nope. Pain and anger.