My life's been utter hell the past 20-some years and even before that, it's ALWAYS felt like everyone was against me! Like everyone else in the world knows that my life is supposed to be completely fucked and they're NOT to help me get through it in ANY way and, if possible, it's their job to fuck me over as much as they can!! Even if they CAN and WANT to help me, they WON'T!! If I want something to happen in my life, they'll see to it it NEVER happens for me but, EVERYBODY ELSE can get what the fuck I want with absolutely no effort!! Even if they DON'T really want it!!
I've always wanted to work in a record store or radio station! EVERYONE I TALK TO says they do now (or used to work) in a radio station at one time!! I found out a new record store was going in at the mall 2 miles from my house so, I applied. The next day, I called up the manager to ask if I could get the job or at least interview for it. He said I should come right up! I got there in less than 10:00 and, as soon as I walked in the door, he said he can't hire me because all the spots have been filled!! IN 10 MINUTES? It's like, "Oh! It's YOU! Sorry, I can't hire YOU!!".
I helped a DJ on the radio one night and he was so impressed with my knowledge of music and records, he said he was gonna talk to the PD about hiring me to do the Oldies Show! The next week, they gave it to another DJ and, 2 weeks later, they killed the show!
At one point, I had a crush on a girl and asked her to be my girlfriend, she told me she's a lezzie! Next thing I know, she fucks my guitarist and has his kid! A few years later, I catch her fucking my singer!! You really suck at that lesbian shit, Leeanne!!
I tried out for another record store 4 years ago. The guy was very impressed but still wouldn't hire me!!
Now, for the second time in 4 years, I'm about to lose my house and, just like that time, NOBODY'S gonna help me!!
Do you ever feel like you're the star of, "The Truman Show"?
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Nobody calls, nobody visits, hardly anybody writes! When I ask people questions that could help me, I get no response!! I've been alone most of my life!! Anytime I try to accomplish something, there's ALWAYS SOMETHING to fuck me over and either ruin or destroy what I've done or something breaks down for years on end and I have no way to continue what I was trying to do!! Maybe if I just died, everyone would be happy!
