Im gay and everyone knows it but I am afraid and unsure how to come out?

[Anonymous]

Ever since grade school i was treated by kids and teachers differently. Female teachers always bullied me for the class to laugh at my expense. Growing up girls never cared for me or showed interest and guys didn't want to befriend me. I was never into effeminate things I loved war, combat video games action figures adventure etc. I notice that Im never asked if im gay, im only told that im a queer or a fag got. Nobody likes or respects me and would rather I kill myself already than to be around or work with them. Keeping a job is impossible for more than a few months. My norm financial is having no money at all and being dependant on my mother who tolerates me but hates talking or being around me. Any time I tell her oh yeah so and so called me a fag got today while i was doing whatever she tells me its all in my head, people dont treat others like that etc. I've been stuck in the same place in life for the last 13yrs+ nearly half my life. Everyday is the same, i can't go in public without being insulted with slurs being gossiped about or laughed at. Im the topic of discussion in every setting im in. I dont even know how to function anymore with all these judgmental eyes staring at my every move. Bullying 8 or 9/10 times come from women presumably because they know they can't get beat for running their wicked tongues. I dont know what to do or how to keep living this hate filled lonely impoverished life. How can I come across as out so maybe the torment will end? I've worked with flamboyant gay men before and NOONE ever bullied them or insulted or shamed them yet i was repeatedly abused without anyone coming to my defense. I just had to stand there and take it.

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1 y

I quit college because professors would call me f***** and watch gleefully as her class laughed themselves to death at my expense. I've had law clerks call me fag got hiding in their office as im talking to the guy at the front getting my defense deposit returned.

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1 y

Its come from minimum wage workers to proffesors, lawyers doctor physcians elderly women etc Am i being treated so poorly because im shy and quiet or because i haven't accepted who i am and stood up for myself? I like to handle my problems

[lightbulb27]

you've been traumatized at an early age, didn't know how to recover from it and got stuck there. It evolved into some long standing paranoi, your brain is hyper sensitive to anything and personalizes it. You need some deep discovery and healing so you can be free and live a productive life. Your brain needs healed.

What you said, is distorted by your own mind, it isn't fact, but it is true to you. What needs to change is your own heart.

Embarq on a journey to care about yourself and love yourself, to heal the inner child. Lots of Meditation. Discover the love of Christ and acceptance. Church people are not Christ, read what Christ said about you and take Gods love.

Therapy to help sort things out, find the deeper wounds and heal them and create a new perspective of yourself.

I don't believe the whole coming out gay thing and it's not relevant, who cares. Focus on rebuilding yourself as a human being.

Lastly, totally cleanup your diet, no junk, only quality. Work on building your manhood and strength, watch videos to do that.

Always be good to yourself with compassion, you've been through a lot and extend compassion and understanding to others. That's all anyone could really ask.

Nobody is perfect and all have their own issues and challenges. Let your mind awaken to see a new day, new you, every day.

Read words of wisdom from the ages, and get inspired for good purpose with your life.

[Asker]

Thats not true im not hearing things stop lying to me

[Asker]

Legit at one job i had all they did was call me fag got day in day out.

[lightbulb27]

record it and post it. I want to see it.
If they are, its very abusive. guys will do this to lower other guys and such words tossed around at school and life, but they just joking around. wasn't every day. your job is to not believe it and rise above that.

[Asker]

Its women 9x outta 10

[In_Trance]

You're afraid of coming out but everyone already knows?
Wtf

[Asker]

Yeah everyone just calls me a fag got in public or queer. I dont actually have conversations with people its just me being insulted

[In_Trance]

Here's an idea.
Why don't you just interact with people like you would and shut the fuck up about being gay?
Never understood why people feel the need to come out...
Even more so if you know you're going to be ridiculed.

[Asker]

um excuse me lol i dont go around announcing im a gay man to the world id best like to go about my life as everyone else not being insulted as a daily part of life..

[Fanfare690]

Live in your truth. Move somewhere where you're accepted

[Asker]

Thats a cope out answer

[Fanfare690]

Well do you want me to say to beat their asses? Lol

[Asker]

what kind of person would i be if i started knocking women out?

[Fanfare690]

Exactly that's why I said to go where you're welcomed or learn to say something back at them

[Asker]

What could I possibly say to someone who views me as beneath them

[Fanfare690]

Mock them back... it's simple

[Asker]

For what nobody gets offended when someone inferior in their eyes insults them, and what get into a fight with their boyfriends over her behavior

[Fanfare690]

If you think that then why post this post. I guess you lose

[DrPepper12]

You need pro therapy. It helps!!

[Asker]

How? I had drug and alcohol counseling and when i told them what i deal with they told me they doubt people would behave like that so openly in public especially complete strangers

[Anonymous]

I just like that everything can be posted under the heading of politics.

[Asker]

blame the algorithm

[Opinion Owner]

Sure. lol