I cut myself for the first time today, and I feel REALLY bad for doing it?

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I know self harm is very bad, but I cut myself today. I was so full of depression, and I needed something (or someone) to take it out on. Since I hate myself so much, I chose myself. I cut multiple short lines on my forearm, right where my beauty mark is, and I carved the word,"ugly" on it. It gave me relief. I can't explain why, but it did.

What are some better ways to relieve stress, because I feel this will become a habit... or it'll lead to me thinking about suicide.
I cut myself for the first time today, and I feel REALLY bad for doing it?
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