Self esteem issues regarding the gym?

Anonymous
So I'm not fat.. I'm a UK size 8 and everyone tells me I'm not fat. But when I go to the gym, no matter how busy it is I just feel like crap.. Everyone there has the perfect body and are able to work out like mad. It makes me feel like crap and pressures me to work really hard, possibly too hard for a beginner. I end up just feeling totally self conscious and can't enjoy myself.. I feel like people notice my love handles etc and notice if I'm not working out really hard, like I prefer to power walk on the treadmill because Im too self conscious to run because I get out of breath, but then I feel like people think I'm pathetic for it.. Does anyone else feel like crap at the gym? How did you get over it? It makes me want to not go at all because I just feel disgusting and its triggering old eating disorder thoughts I used to have (food restriction/purging- I was never a fan of exercise) and I'm scared to get back into that again..
Self esteem issues regarding the gym?
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