I get these images or thoughts of walking out in front of cars?

[Anonymous]

I know this sounds absolutely messed up. I'm seeing a psychiatrist, but I haven't told her about this, as I fear that she would force me to get admitted in a psychiatric ward. From experience, I only became more and more mentally unstable, rather than getting back on my feet. The reason why I'm seeing her is due to anxiety and obsessive compulsive disorder - My anxiety affects each aspect of my life right now, so I don't know it this is my anxiety? My anxiety is more "focused" on the topic death, as I have this huge fear of dying.

So let's get to the point.
I'm starting to get these thoughts or pictures of myself just walking onto oncoming traffic. I don't do it, but there's something in my head just pondering what will happen if I do it. I can't walk in public without this happening - and I'm starting to get afraid of myself, as I feel like I could possibly do it - nor because I want to die, but just because of those curious thoughts.
I also get these other thoughts of overdosing, slitting my wrist etc. Just dying in general, which confuses me as I'm so scared and anxious constantly that I can't function like a normal human being.

I know this sound batshit crazy an confusing. But have you ever experienced this?

[super147]

You say that you have a huge fear of dying and that makes a lot of sense, because it's somewhat natural to be slightly compelled by things that scare us. We tend to do it in safe environment where we can explore that fear without necessarily being exposed to it. It's a bit like being afraid of heights and yet feeling compelled to see how close you can get to the edge of a precipice.

Death is life's great mystery, nobody can conclusively say what happens when we're gone because nobody is alive to tell. Yes, people have been technically dead and have been brought back to life and have related what they felt and saw, but that could all be explained away. Nobody can truly know what it's like to die and to remain dead. Logic and science would tell you that it's simply nothing, no consciousness no awareness. That is a lot to try and comprehend, although I often wonder if eternal life isn't equally as scary a thought.

Try not to be too frightened or disturbed by your curiosity with death. The only way in which is it unhealthy is if it detracts from your ability to live life. Anything that becomes so much of an obsession that it stops you living and thriving is a concern.

[kinggeorge007]

I think you should tell this to a trained practitioner other than seeking for public comments. We don't know anything about psychiatry. (There could be psychiatrists here. But chances are rare.) And your thoughts are apparently could be leading to self destruction. So please don't hesitate to consult a psychiatrist.

[kaylaS91]

What will happen if you walk into oncoming traffic?
Well. You'll either die or get incredibly badly injured. Leaving you with no choice but to spend months in hospital. Undergo countless surgeries, and then still continue having to deal with the repercussions and medical appointments to 'check up on your progress' for months, if not years, post-incident.
(Yes, I've experienced that one.)

[Cg247]

I don't blame you to be honest.. we live in a pretty awful world. Just find something that makes you happy if you can

[Anonymous]

You need to grab life by the pussy and start living.