Feeling worthless after being cheated on/lied to?

Anonymous
I had been dating my boyfriend over a year and I thought things were going well. I really, really loved him (still do to a point). I trusted him, and shared so much of myself with him.

I had been with other guys before my boyfriend. But I'm very relationship-oriented. I'm not the type of person to just hook up. We waited a long time before having sex. It took us 4 months into the relationship to have sex. I didn't want to rush things.

Anyway, I found out 2 weeks ago that my boyfriend had an active dating profile up. I was really hurt when I found it. He to this day has continued to deny even having the profile. Even though it's saying it's active and he has recent pics up.

My friend made a fake profile and messaged him and he told her he had been dating a girl from a different town than me and they broke up in February (while we were together!).

I've never felt so betrayed in my life! I have been having a hard time with the whole situation. I feel completely worthless, like a piece of garbage that has been used up. Even though I wasn't the person who did anything wrong.

I treated my boyfriend really well. I drove him places, bought him his favourite foods. I would come to him, instead of making him drive since he worked long hours (I also worked long hours and had a long commute).

I never once raised my voice at him, I was always very pleasant and understanding about things.

Little things really get me. Today I went in for a test at the hospital and I almost cried during the test because all I wanted was for him to be there with me :( I just feel so alone, and I don't even know if I can trust another guy.

Is this normal?
Feeling worthless after being cheated on/lied to?
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