Why does he treat me like crap and intentionally hurt me?
Lately my boyfriend seems so distant & unattached anymore. He doesn't seem 2 notice me anymore, & whenever I ask him 4 something he will yell & complain about it. Yeah I am a sensitive person but I KNOW THIS GUY &I love him for those strengths he has in him that I thought I needed.. He was the only person I know who actually thought I mattered. He accepted me for who I am. He used to look out 4 me. He used 2 look forward 2 seeing me. When we got together, he & I would do everything together, laugh, and have fun no matter what we did. We had fun everywhere, even if it was for just a walk to the corner store & back... The only time he comes near me today is to have sex. I have to wake him up to even come 2 bed. it's like I am invisible or I'm a pain in the ass if I ask 4 something, his time, or some attention when I come around. He is 2 busy. I try to communicate with him my feelings and he cuts me off, degrades me, criticizes me, blames me, then he will throw me out & tell me I have to "get going". It feels like there is no love. I am staying with him because I am at a point in my life where I am going through some hard times & I really really need him 2 be there, (here) me . I am scared & feeling lost. I have been unemployed 2long. He doesn't work, he stays home and plays with his toys, works on projects around his house, or is busy entertaining his friends, first, of course. He forgot I needed him. He forgot I need him too.
I sit there, I try to get involved but when I do, he'll accuse me of trying 2 flirt or hook up with 1 of his friends and I am blamed for bull sh**. . It's like he'll think of someway I am trying to betray him...it's such crap. I really need his time he yells at me & says I ruin everything and he can't enjoy himself because I am around & how I am a bi**h & how nobody likes me around. It kills me to listen to him & he goes on & on & on . He is rude to me in front of his friends & says I am why they don't want 2 come around his place anymore. It is him who changes when they come by & he still treats me so mean. He cusses at me and has even gotten physical to where I have bruises on my body. I know you are thinking what a dummy I am but I just want to know if I can fix it or is it too late, the damage is already done. All I ask for is his comfort & attention & his strengths so I know that I'll make it through these hard times. I'm not even sure if he loves me but if there is something I can try 2 do 2 fix it I will before I say goodbye forever. I have been angry with myself for even believing he was my soul mate and best friend when maybe all I am holding on to is fantasy... He treats me as needed... He ignores me when certain friends come by... He totally fights with me in front of his friends and goes into battle mode just to show everyone he is louder, and more dominate. I get embarrassed in front of his friends and I feel like they all hate me too. I have 2 hide from his mom! then he'll act like nothing happened.
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