I begged a man to stay with me and I feel so embarrassed about it, how do I regain dignity?

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We dated for few months and fell in love with him. Then I made a silly mistake getting angry at him for a cancelled date and he pulled away because of that. I reached out and apologized but he wasn't very forgiving, said it pushed him away. And then I stooped so low to beg him to not leave me, to work this out. He said okay but didn't hear from him again. I guess he is done with me.
I had time to think about everything and I realized that he wasn't that into me in the first place and that me getting angry shouldn't have been a deal breaker for someone who really likes me. I am so turned off by him now and I hope he never contacts me again, he doesn't deserve me. But I am still not over the fact that I begged him... I ended up being such a pathetic doormat and I'm disgusted by myself. He's probably laughing right now telling his friends how pathetic I am.
I really need my dignity back!
I begged a man to stay with me and I feel so embarrassed about it, how do I regain dignity?
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