I feel I'm stuck in the past?

[Anonymous]

I was in happy relationship then problem after problem did lead to break up I accepted that and moved on in fact my ex did hurt me deeply and I had to just leave the situation.
Anyway my mom had cancer and she passed away I couldn't handle the pain I felt I was going to get heart attack I contacted my ex I told her please just stay with me I can't handle that much of pain she said never mind I'm here for you anytime for a week everything was fine and then I started to bring up the past and why she did this and that at this point she Said I'm here only because you asked me to stay there's nothing more to talk about. I don't really know at that point I Lost mind and I blocked her she got very upset. Later apologized to her but she was holding everything. Anyway she said I want nothing to do with you and we are totally done. I accepted that too but I sometimes get flashback about that relationship it wasn't normal I had 8 relationship none of them were like that she was there when my mom got Cancer and she was there in my worst Time and worst chapter of my life that's one of the reasons I can't delete her completely. I'm not sure what to do even when I talk with new girls I feel I'm cheating my ex. What should I do? I'm damn stuck

[jennifer_bloom]

Don’t rely on an opposite gender person romantic interest for emotional support, I did that as an 18 year old and experienced the most agonizing rejection in my entire life when he rejected me, go to a house of worship and pray or listen to positive worship music or happy songs, consider spending time with animals by borrowing a friends cat or dog for a day and if you have free time volunteer at a food bank, you need to diversify your connections so if one person turns on you, you don’t lose all your social support.

[Asker]

I know that's true but I have seen too much with the cancer disease Im far better than before but I'm just human I want to move on completely but I sometimes feel I have mild PTSD it's tough to take care of cancer patient and see the procedures.
Thanks for your opinion

[jennifer_bloom]

I recommend meditation or prayer cause meditation helps you detach and disassociate and therapy or prayer or mourning helps you grieve, I never try to hide my pain if I’m sad, I let myself cry because crying is part of the healing process - You could also try running or karate or painting

[Asker]

I still go to gym and I enjoy restoring classic cars. Thanks you really helped me , I feel I just need a push