He left me when I needed him the most how do I get over it?

[Anonymous]

These 3 weeks have been tough for me my grandma who raised me when I was little passed away, I've had a fight with my brother and he beat me and my father has Parkinson disease and money is so short (we are technically broke) my ex knows all of this even the smallest details I thought he was gonna support me but boy was I wrong he did the first 3 days after that he started picking fights and bringing up old problems in our relationship (we were together for almost 2 years) after that he used one of my issues as a reason to leave me and told me that I love playing the victim and that I need therapy because I'm crazy and even called my mom and told her that he doesn't wanna stay with me anymore I've been shocked since all of this happened because I'm overwhelmed I didn't even cry when he left me but I feel like my heart is broken into million pieces how can I move on from this? I thought we were gonna stay together through thick and thin I supported him when he had hard times why did he turn his back on me? He broke up with me multiple times before and I'm ashamed to say that I always begged him to come back whenever I start expressing my emotions he sees it as me being dramatic and dumps me then blocks me on everything and ignores me just like he did now it's been 3 days I didn't contact him I didn't beg him but I wanna know why he did this to me I spend all of my days sleeping because it's all too much for me to handle I even thought about s... but thank god now I stopped having these thoughts is there anyone who's been through the same experience? I just wanna know how to move on from this because I once thought that I was gonns marry this person and have kids with him... for more details we're both 23 nearly 24 years

[artemisiaa]

I may be considered to be too young, but I have been through some really bad times having had anxiety for 7 years at a young age (yes, diagnosed), and got rid of it myself. But first of all, process each event bit by bit until you feel like you do not need to think or talk about it anymore. It is okay to cry about it and it is okay to feel remorse for a life you fee you lost. Next, realise you are so much stronger than you think, you have made it so far and the light on the otherside is so much better! Your ex revealed his true colours, realise you can do better. He should not have to be your everything if you were not his at that moment. Perhaps he felt overwhelmed too, but that does not change the fact HE LEFT. After that, start working on things. Step by step, realise you can make progress and track it too, it feels so rewarding to see each issue be resolved and forgotten. You can make a list of what you can do if you want and tick off each step one by one, as you complete them. Work towards a bigger picture, how you want your future self to be like. Think about how you can do this. So in conclusion: think over, realise, make a plan, move on! It is tough and will seem so for a long time, but you seem like such a strong person and you're already so close! I hope you are well and continue to stay brave! :)