As you have read, I said "My reasonings." No one else's, this is just my personal opinions and experiences. Everything that I'm about to tell you is true whether you want to believe it or not that is up to you. This is more so a rant and maybe some of you have experienced the same thing. Yes I have had my heart broken. I've had plenty of sleepless nights and headaches from to many tears. This is a little more than that. Well shall we start?
1. I am so tired of hearing "you are so much better than me."
"I'm no good for you," "I don't deserve you because you're going somewhere and I'm not," or the "I don't want to drag you down." I get it, you don't want to be with me but you don't have to lie.
2. Even though I'm 22 years old my parents will question the worth of the person I'm with
Either in front of them or behind their backs.
3. I was sheltered as a child so I haven't really experienced the fun in life.
So it kind of scares me a little bit. Why do I want to be the party pooper of the group or a couple? Just because I'm afraid of my reaction are getting made fun of doesn't mean I want you to miss out.
4. I'm a full time college student.
I have tried and I have failed holding a job and going to college so I hate that I have to be a bum. It is the worst feeling in the world going out on a date and not being able to return the favor it drives me nuts!
5. I am a little person.
I'm not a midget or a dwarf but I am sure short. And I have some meat on my bones. Please please do not make fun of me. That hurts so much when someone you're a little bit interested in makes fun of you!
6. I don't like when people question my intelligence.
I do it all the time. And if anybody wants to kill me for my grammar I am doing the Google talk on my phone so blame the technology this time lol. I don't like when people act like I'm retarded and I don't know anything I'm not the smartest app on the tree but give me a little credit.
7. I can't seem to find anybody who respects my parents or my household.
Please don't come in my house and kick off your shoes and put your feet on my coffee table or just open up the fridge and make something to eat. That's a little rude, don't you think?
8. Is it really that hard to take a shower, brush your teeth, and clean your clothes?
I don't find it that difficult hygiene is a big problem for me I have not found a guy that will take care of himself. I made a lot of guys that are also drug dependent. Since I don't do anything that kind of bothers me.
9. I have came across the guys that are crazy about me that it's terrifying.
And I have came across the guys that seem like Prince Charming and then they ghost you or give you the dumbest reason that you can think of to break up. Just when you think that everything is okay and you might have found somebody you meet a guy like that. I've also had the cheaters that can't keep it in their pants and yes guys before you put me on The Gallows women do it too.
10. Last but not least, I am 22 years old and I don't want children at this point.
I'm just trying to get through school and help my family. I can't make time for a boyfriend when my main priority is schooling and my family. My dad has a lot of medical issues and I tend to keep a close eye on him. A lot of guys don't understand that. And I'm worried let's say I do get pregnant, I'd like the father to be present in the child's life. Ghost me? Okay. Ghost my child, that's really going to kill me.