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I feel stuck and depressed. Am I?

Me and my boyfriend been together seriously starting 2019 but we knew each other since 2015 and I was like a little jump off for him he didn’t give a fuck about me but I gave lots of fuck about him. I was a fool in 2016 or 17 he got arrested for 3 years and I stay with him and waited for him to have this fairy tale happy ending don’t judge me. Although honestly I was doing my own thing while he was in prison I was not faithful because when he was out he didn’t give 2 shit about me. I didn’t want to wait for a man in prison for 3 fucking years and he gets out and shit on me. But when he got out about him a phone and he was talking to other girls I was hurt I cried in front of him and ever since then he never talk to another girl. But the problem is I got a house and the house is in my name due to the fact he is felon but he constantly accuse me of cheating, pick fights with me constantly be trying to go through my phone, he done broke so much phones of mines then pay for it again. When I’m at work he constantly keeps calling me, he constantly get mad if I talk to guy coworkers about work, when he mad he put my self esteem down, he put his hands on me, he hold me hostage in my own home, he threatens me. Sometimes I leave the house for days because he just finish putting his hands on me and I can’t stand looking at him. I love him but I honestly really hate him maybe more. I’m getting tired of looking at him, I’m getting bitter, angry, annoyed. He gets jealous if I have friends he gets mad if I’m trying to work at certain places, he get jealous of what school I’m trying to attend like for Christ sake why tf that matters as long as I’m getting my education. He had hack my social medias and change my passwords cause he didn’t want guys to hit on me. He beat me up if I try to have some what freedom. He is very insecure, he constantly argue with me for little things, he be searching my car, he just be doing the most.
I feel stuck and depressed. Am I?
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