An almost 30 year old virgin who nobody loves or cares about whose fat short and ugly.
Family doesn't care about me.
Friends don't care about me.
Women I try for never love me back.
I want to cry but I can't.
Why do I have to die alone?
Why am I either invisible or repulsive?
Why do I have to look at the empty space in my bed knowing no woman loves me.
Why does every woman I try for forget me and chooses to love someone else but I'm never good enough?
Why did I have to be me?
It sucks being me.
No one would ever want to be me.
I'm severely depressed over a celebrity crush as well as personal misery. I'm miserable over her and I hate who she's with. I hate my life because attractive women don't like me even though I'm unfortunately very ugly looking.
My celeb crush Becky Lynch is engaged and had a kid with the dude she's with is a piece of shit so i give up on life. He ruined my life. Guy is a scumbag who ends up with her proves there's no justice in the world.
Meanwhile I'm 28 never a girlfriend or kissed still a virgin and I'm fat ugly short and poor and the only advice I get is go to hookers or date fat ugly women or die alone if I never end up with an attractive woman then my life will always suck For that scumbag piece of shit seth Rollins to be with Becky Lynch while I'm left unloved proves only scumbags get the best of everything. Meanwhile people tell me to settle or accept dying alone.
I got cursed being ugly.
You ask for help. But I have the feeling that you won't listen. I have the feeling that people have told you many times what you should do but you don't listen and don't do what they say. I doubt if I'm saying anything new, but here goes...
There might be some things that you have little or no control over. But there are a lot of things that you DO have control over. You have control over your weight. You actually have some control over your looks too. You have control over how you dress, how you groom yourself and your personal hygiene.
Now for attitude, which also affects your looks. It's understandable that if you've had bad luck that it can be demotivating. However your attitude is a huge negative. Why would a woman want to be with a guy who will just bring her down? She wants a guy who makes her feel good and has a positive influence on her.
Don't think that "if only" you had a woman your attitude would magically change. It won't. You might feel a little better about yourself, but it's not some kind of magic pill that suddenly makes you a completely different person.
You need to work on your attitude. That might be easier said than done, but the difficulty of doing it doesn't change what needs to be done. Your attitude does show on your face. You look like you are pissed off (which you are). You do have some control over that.
Forget about your celebrity crush. Forget about who she is with. That's her business and his business, and you probably know virtually nothing about it. Their private life is completely 100% irrelevant to you.
I had to look up this person. She's a professional wrestler. Stop watching that crap and find something else to get into. Let's just say that being into pro wrestling is not a positive thing to put in a dating profile.
Stop wallowing in your own grief and do something about it. It's not going to happen on it's own. You have to make it happen. You don't have to go to extremes and completely transform yourself all at once. That's not realistic. But you do have to start somewhere. Sitting around being miserable isn't going to help. Trying to be someone completely different isn't going to work either. But you CAN improve yourself.
You have a choice. Either you do something about it, or you accept things as they are. So are you OK with how things are now or not? If not then do something about it.
One last comment about looks. I can guarantee with 100% confidence that your looks are not preventing you from getting someone. Looks can decrease the chances somewhat, but not prevent you or anyone else from getting someone.