Not to sound rude or condescending, but have you considered going to therapy? I mean that in the most positive and genuine way. It sounds like you have a pattern of creating negativity in your relationships, which could be something you are doing unintentionally. Sometimes it can be super helpful to explore things like that in a therapy setting to get to the root cause of why you self-sabotage your relationships and how you can cognitively work to change that toxic pattern and embrace healthier relationships in the future.
Stop getting into relationships until you are mental and emotionally stable and mature. You'll know when that is, because you will stop having those problems.
Someone suggested therapy... but you've just described a very large majority of women. It's why the bad boys are popular and why the term 'nice guys finish last' is so true. Therapy is unlikely to change the fact that you find nice guys boring, most women do... and they only date them when they run out of other options.
Having said that, what you wrote does make one wonder about the relationship you had with your father...
The only valid advice to give is stop being stupid.
You openly admit you are self sabatoging, either by pushing away good matches, or by refusing to admit that they aren't actually good matches.
Character alone isn't enough, you also need relatability.
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Sounds to me like what you really need is someone that can discipline you. Someone that can treat you well, but also bad when it’s needed.
Because you choose toxic men. Subconsciously you're attracted to it. This video explains it.
https://www.youtube.com/embed/Hvysy11716g
Consult Mental Health professional…
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