I went through A LOT of pain to get where I am now. I looked out at the world with confusion. I didn't understand how people got girlfriends. Absolutely none of my feelings for anyone ever felt validated. Even now, it feels like every feeling I've ever had seemed stupid and fake.
Now it feels SO much easier to navigate this space. To be attractive to girls, to say the right thing. But also I feel like if I make a mistake, if I say the wrong thing, then it could all come crashing down. And yet, I think I'm actually kinda good at this now. Maybe.
I'm red pilled and PUA. And I feel like an imposter, because all my knowledge is mostly theory. I'm kinda getting worried about how to progress in this dating thing. Like girls are gonna ask me real questions about my real personality and my real personal history... What the fuck am I going to do when that comes up?
So I guess my question is, does anyone else understand what I'm feeling? Does anyone else know what it's like to be so old and inexperienced and look back at your life and see all the years of pain and wonder why the hell it had to be so hard?
Now it feels SO much easier to navigate this space. To be attractive to girls, to say the right thing. But also I feel like if I make a mistake, if I say the wrong thing, then it could all come crashing down. And yet, I think I'm actually kinda good at this now. Maybe.
I'm red pilled and PUA. And I feel like an imposter, because all my knowledge is mostly theory. I'm kinda getting worried about how to progress in this dating thing. Like girls are gonna ask me real questions about my real personality and my real personal history... What the fuck am I going to do when that comes up?
So I guess my question is, does anyone else understand what I'm feeling? Does anyone else know what it's like to be so old and inexperienced and look back at your life and see all the years of pain and wonder why the hell it had to be so hard?
