Am I gay if all this?

[Unfortunateguy27]

Women have never been interested in me and only laugh scoff or giggle when I pass by. Make rude comments or slurs and put me down. I’m goofy looking weird and awkward and weigh 144 pounds so skinny.
i also don’t bother to talk to women or look at them I don't know if it’s cause I am gay or that my history with how women treat me is so poorly that I don’t even put myself out there.
I just always look at the ground or away when walking past both genders. My life experience has taught me that I’m beneath everyone and nobody likes me. Never had friends never dated nobody approaches me to socialize they look at me then walk away. People gossip around me and make smart ass remakes with double meanings. I never had a social life and have no hobbies as I don’t fit in and will never be accepted. I just work and sleep sometimes play games to pass time. Typically I’m unemployed due to the constant bullying and management always sides with the people that do the harassing and they essentially deny it or turn a blind eye to it. So I’m 27 weird ugly and everyone thinks I’m gay. I have no friends never been touched sexually, no social life no hobbies and I’m extremely poor and have a hard time living life. Me and my coworkers get the same pay yet I have to deal with so much more at work than they do to make my money to support myself.

[Smoke-n-Growls]

It's really something only you can say, but it sounds to me more like you have cripplingly low self-esteem, poor social skills, and a very unhealthy mindset.

You need help to build up a healthier self-perception. It's clear you'll have too hard a time on your own.

I highly suggest researching psychologists around you who can offer guidance and support in helping you adopt healthier mindsets and habits.

In the legendary words of RuPaul: "if you can't love yourself, how the hell you gonna love someone else?"

[Unfortunateguy27]

Im just this way because of how im always treated, i was told im borderline on major depression disorder by a specialist but I've lived like this for the last 9yrs its all i know. Change is impossible and given how im viewed treated and spoken to there is no reason to change, this life of mine is all i know

[Smoke-n-Growls]

Have you even tried anything yet though? Like monthly therapy and medication?

Most of the time I see men on here complain about "this is how I've always been", it turns out they haven't actually put any effort into growing themselves in a meaningful way.

They've just transitioned into adulthood, which they ended up poorly prepared for, and don't know how to cope. Therapy can help you learn.

But if you're committed to being miserable, keep doing you. As long as you don't hurt anyone else, ultimately it's your choice.

[Unfortunateguy27]

Ok thank you I won't

[Smoke-n-Growls]

"I've tried nothing but I'm all out of ideas!" 🤣

[Unfortunateguy27]

Well there's nothing to fix im just me

[Smoke-n-Growls]

You are you, that's correct. But your self-esteem problems aren't YOU. They're something happening TO you.

You're not a complete being. Not ever. You'll always have room to grow and develop, and if you don't like something about yourself, you have the capacity to try to change it.

But not unless you resolve to help yourself. No one is going to help you, but you.

[EarthRealm]

No your not gay
You just aren’t blind to who people really are.
It is gift to see the Real people under the mask people wear
Carry it with you always and Forever.

[RobT312]

Well if you want or have sexual relationships with guys then u are gay.
doesn't sound like it.
sounds like u have some social issues to overcome and you’re just fine

[Anonymous]

No, that doesn't make you gay.