I never wanted it to happen the way it did and I feel ashamed of myself. I always thought IF HE EVER became single then perhaps I’d tell him how I felt & see if he’d like to get to know each other privately eg a date or something.
There’s always been this ‘ spark’ between us and my family senses it too because his a family friend. But the thing is he has a girlfriend which Iv always been very respectful about. We kissed not long ago and told each other we liked each other.
Now I feel so ashamed of what Iv done and I feel Iv ruined things for the future IF EVER something was ever to happen.
Iv seen him since but we didn’t talk about it at all as we was with family but we did chat normally. Like how can I move on from this because it feels it’s gonna be hard if I see him etc? I’m slightly embarrassed about it all because I can’t lie I do think about him his very funny and attractive. But obviously there’s no way I want a man who has a girlfriend it’s wrong.
Also it wasn’t all me before anyone takes the blame calling me names or something harsh like he was kissing me too and telling me he liked me.
I feel dreadful. How can I move on?
