I’ve been seeing this guy for a little over a year, I’ve learned that he’s not an affectionate person and has trust issues. I’ve asked him about him never asking me out properly and he said he just assumed that we were already dating. Anyways, I’ve talked about him not being affectionate and how his words don’t match his actions. He’s had a lot of trauma that has affected and changed who he is today, so I was being understanding of the situation. However, he doesn’t know that I’m bipolar and he came over one night and just wasn’t being affectionate and I was just upset because I’ve talked about it with him before.
The next day, I was going through an episode (which lasted about a week). I was very angry/sad and overthinking every little thing to the point where I was just mentally exhausted. I made an impulsive decision to send him a cold text the day after seeing him. It was me explaining what I’ve told him in the past, how I don’t feel relevant to his life and how he’s not affectionate. I pretty much cut him off by saying that he didn’t need to respond to my message because I wanted to move on. I honestly don’t remember where i was nor typing out the text.
He never responded which I completely understand why. I am just really regretting sending that text because I was in such a bad state. I feel like part of the reason he also didn’t respond is because he’s mad that I didn’t just sit and talk with him about it again. I want to apologize to him and explain that I was having an episode and my emotions were just so amplified. I don’t want to apologize for the part of me explaining how I’ve felt throughout the whole time I’ve been seeing him, I just want to apologize for how I went about it. Rather than communicating it again with him, I sent that impulsive text cutting him off. I’m just worried he won’t respond/understand which is holding me back from texting him again. Would it be stupid for me to text him? or should I just let him go..
