Is it cheating if a woman reminisces about someone from her past while in a relationship but she doesn’t act on it?

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I’m in a relationship with my boyfriend and it’s been a month, in the beginning I felt super happy and over the moon. He was super sweet, caring, romantic, patient and generous but lately he’s been mean to me…he’s been putting me down for not paying attention, he tells me I don’t do anything right., and calls me dumb and stupid. He does have a good side but it gets under my skin. I don’t know what happened but he does have a good side and I’m trying my best to give him time and give him a chance because I care and trying to see the good in him despite the rudeness. Today when we left after hanging out I cried and reminisced about an old crush/fling. A guy I knew from grade school, who was so patient with me, so understanding , attentive ,& caring and I felt so bad I was having that vision of him when I’m in a relationship and I’ve never cheated and would never break my bfs hurt but I guess I was thinking of what could’ve been if that makes sense. I can’t go back to this other guy though because he wasn’t ready for commitment and struggling with personal mental health problems. Am I bad for being in this scenario?

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Is it cheating if a woman reminisces about someone from her past while in a relationship but she doesn’t act on it?
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