I am not 100% with my guy friend because of me ego. How to fix this?

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I don’t know if it’s only ego or my principles, values and morals. I never get into a relationship or even go on a single date with someone who’s involved with someone else. I’ve always liked my guy friend and I still do, I’ve felt a spark since the day we met 8 years ago and the connection is still there. He feels it as well. I think we’re compatible and will be a great couple. However; he’s been involved with someone (a married older woman, rumors are she groomed him) and due to this I’ve been turning him down a lot. He’s always been asking me to hang out but I prefer if we do that as a group not alone. I’ve heard his “girlfriend” is very scary and I’m afraid she hurts us both. We only go to each others’ homes for get togethers. He often asks if I ever liked him or If my parents like him and I lie every time. I never told him I liked him since then and think about all day. I even called “him bro recently cause I wasn’t thinking straight. I also was never bold enough to ask him if he ever liked me more than a friend. What should I do?
I am not 100% with my guy friend because of me ego. How to fix this?
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