I have been seeing this woman for over a month now. After the second date it was clear that there was something here. It's been nice to feel the connection build. Our 5th date was one of the most lovely nights of my life. We were very open with each other. It was just so sweet and warm feeling and all we did was talk and kiss.
Physically, we have had some heavy makeouts. Last, we had some clothes off and were touching intimately. She set boundaries from the start and eventually had to go. Same thing happened on previous makeout. I asked if I could take her bra off and she thought about it before telling me "Hmm, not tonight". Last time, I was partly exploring, mostly focused on trying to see how I can pleasure her. I couldn't tell what she liked. I was worried that she didn't like anything, but she has continued to talk to me after last weekend. I want to ask her what she liked/didn't like + what I could learn more about to make things better.
I can feel her pumping the brakes with us to slow things down and part of me really wishes we could go faster and see each other more often and do more with each other.
Last weekend she was showing me pictures of her plain office. She said she never got around to decorating. I found a nice vase and and some flowers and dropped it off at her apartment. She seemed surprised and thought it was sweet. She already took the flowers to her office. I told her that the flowers are the prettiest thing in her office until she gets in every day and she just hearted that message, no reply.
I want to keep pursuing her. I know that I want her and I go after after what I want in my life. If eventually she decides she isn't interested, glad I tried. Another small part of me feels like I should pull back and let her recognize my absence, but this feels unnatural. If I'm going this route I might as well date other people which seems wrong. I have picked up other aspects of my life but I still care about building this connection.
